Here I Am (part 3 of 3)

by Bill McArthur

(READ PART 1 HERE)
(READ PART 2 HERE)

Here I am.
All around me has gone.
I just want to get to that safe place.
Next thing I know
some people are beside me.
One place a hand on my shoulder
and starts speaking to God.
Another person speaks using strange words.
All of a sudden
my eyes fill up and overflow.
The tears are warm on my cheeks
and I welcome them. 
I want to get on my knees
So I do.
I hear the word Love, over and over
and I want it. 
The tears pour out
and I say yes to it all.
Then I stand up, a bit shakey
but as I look around
I see a lot of smiling faces
and the place is filled with light.
In my chest my heart feels like it could burst.
I have to sit down.
Some people sit with me
and I hug one of them.
Then I feel something else.
Something I have heard of.
This is JOY.
Again I feel the sensation in my chest 
and I want to love everyone around me.
I feel connected to them somehow.
Then I think of an ordinary thing.
How will I get home?
I can't drive in this state.
I ask to be excused and go for a cup of tea at the back of the hall
and gradually I calm down.
I look around and everything seems to be in very clear detail.
I notice a stunningly beautiful baby.
People came up to me and say congratulations
and I wonder what I have done?
All I know is that I will never be alone again.
I have a very real sense that all is well and I am safe.
And then I smile like I have never smiled before.