It was that kinda week… I don’t know about you but sometimes I have a day where I think, yeah I’m nailing this life thing! Dinner on the table, washing done, kids happy, I’m clothed and my hair is even brushed… But then there are….the other kind of days/weeks. Please tell me you know and also have the type of days I’m talking about?! I’m going to share with you two stories of the past week or so where it was definitely one of those weeks.
It’s Wednesday, I’m feeling good! washings done (loving the new tumble dryer), I’m off to the gym and come back to find Blair standing on the landing at the top of our stairs with what I can only describe as 10yr old boys pj bottoms on, they look strangely like his favourite bottoms but they only reach half way down his calf. ‘Lyndsey did you perhaps put my bottoms in the dryer?’ Ummmmmm now as well as laugh hysterically at the sight of my husband, I also began to say things like ‘oh I’m so sorry, I am the worst wife!’, ‘I don’t know what I was thinking?’ And ‘I’m such an idiot’.
Now a few days later I was out and about at a class with Grace and Jonah and I had forgotten to pack the change bag again and it was time to feed Jonah. I had no bib and the only thing I had to use to stop him getting soaked was a Kleenex. A mum actually came over and offered me her spare bib since it looked so ridiculous, this is what I refer to as a #mumfail. I was thinking ‘I’m such an idiot,’ and ‘my poor child got stuck with the mum who can’t pack a bib.’
Now I probably only said these things out loud a few times, but the reality is, I don’t know how many times I said these things in my head in the following days. Then by the time I got over it, I had another thing to give myself a hard time about. I mean silly things like the day after I gave birth to Jonah saying ‘I still look 9 months pregnant!!’ And in the coming weeks saying ‘I’m so fat!.
Ladies, if you’re like me, we need to stop saying these things over ourselves! On the days where things like this happen, we must laugh, deal with the situation and move swiftly on! Oh how these things are fleeting, trivial and not a reflection of who we are. We are treasured by our Heavenly Father and forgetting a bib does not make me a bad mum, wife or person and in actual fact- these things are just one moment of one day of my life. As I attempted to stop the negative thoughts and sayings, I knew I had to grasp onto other words and speak truth into my own life.
I am valuable because I was created in Gods’ own image (Genesis 1:27) and I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). I belong to the King of kings and He loves me!
There are so many truths in the bible that tell us how beautiful, valued, treasured and loved by God we are. So next time you want to give yourself a hard time, or speak negativity over yourself, remember God, the creator of this amazing universe, loves YOU!
Thoughts, experiences, and encouragement from the ladies of Falkirk Vineyard.